Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I feel great

First and foremost, thank you to all that have been an inspiration to to me. I am more than thankful for the support this board has given me....just wanted to share my own experience. I quit for over 2 weeks cold turkey....I only a very young smoker compared to many on this board, but nonetheless I did not like myself smoking as much as I did. I was not bad when it comes to how many cigs I smoked, but as everyone here knows no cig is good. Heres my story....I quit cold turkey weeks ago. I am in college and I also quit my full time job to better myself in school as my grades were slipping and wanted to focus on school. I have enough to support myself for the time being but couldn't imagine dropping 6-7 bucks a pack for somthing that could kill me. I did great and am proud of myself. When I quit I had just bought a brand new pack. I had been very good and not smoked a single one until my first night I was out with my friends (who happen to be very avid smokers). I held strong and still didn't smoke one. Anyways, I have been very good and all craving has come to an end. (at least to the point where I would actually smoke) Well anyways I had more than a few drinks last night and smoked one of my leftovers (more than a few drinks,stop smoking, I was DRUNK. I ABSOLUTELY HATED IT. I couldn't even smoke a quarter of that damn cancer stick until I threw it out. I still don't know why I did it, but am truly glad I did. It was just plain NASTY. I am so thankful that I feel the way I do because even when I am out of my mind, I seriosuly don't like it. Only god will know why I liked that sick habit so much. It just feels really good to finally be completely over it and I'm glad I had the support from this board . I consider myself lucky to not be hooked on this nasty habit as long as most folks on this board. Just a big thanks to everyone here....thanks for the support and unfortunately I "donated" the rest of my pack to my friend. He insisted,stop smoking now, and I didn't want them anymore. I feel a slight bit of guilt, but the joy of me truly (and I LOVED TO SMOKE) not wanting to smoke was worth it. Thank you all!!!!! Kegan

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