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Hi everyone out there, well its now my 45th day of not smoking, omg was this a trying time for me, I have experienced withdrawl, which i think was easier, then the anxiety I am now dealing with, when does this stop? how can you make it easier? anyone out there with any suggestions. I could use the help and support. I have been trying to stay away from stressful situations, but that seems impossible, especially since i quit smoking, with my mother going through surgery,quit smoking, my sister in and out of the hospital, my uncle's (2 of them), in and out of the hospital, and my sis-in-law passing away not to mention the marital strife, all this within the last 45 days. Adn then theres mothers day, which is not the best day i n the world for me, not since I lost my oldest son, he was 16 and died of a heart virus. It was very extremely sudden. I deal with that grief on a daily basis. Through it all, I had one cigarette during this period, but i did slip a puff or 2 off cigs, and I had one drag of a cigarette today. It was an emotional time for me. The good thing is that my family, are reminding me, that I quit and that they are proud of me for quitting. I smoked for 15 years, April 2, 2006 was my quitting day, it was something my sons always wanted me to do, so I did it, one day before the anniversary date of my sons passing. The bad thing about quitting like that was that I was so unprepared for all the physical and emotional challenges I would face in the coming days. Since then,Herbal cigarettes, when I cant sleep which isnt as often as it was, I read up on smoking cessation, anxiety, etc. etc. I never realized that all those things were part of quitting smoking. I've learned alot about smoking cessation, but it is so hard to hang in there. one minute i'm ok the next i want to cry or i'm mad, or something isnt right. anyone out there have any reassuring words for me, please let me know. thanks, Jody in WI