I am going through the same things you all are...

I've edited this original post,Herbal cigarettes, because i thought i should add something. Yesterday, I lashed out...not at one particular person, remember that...but at a thread that frustrated me. It was one of those times when I should have thought before I typed...it's a bad character trait of mine. Another bad trait is that i am too darn defensive...i take things way too personally. Do you all think I am a bad person because I freaked out? Do you think I am mean? Do you think I am a bi**h?I really AM a kind and caring person. With over 200 posts,stop smoking now, nearly all of them are positive, encouraging, and trying to help, while seeking help myself. See me as whatever you like. I can't guarantee i will never speak up again, I am only human, but it is NEVER EVER EVER my intention to hurt anyone here, new or old.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I don't feel the need to explain my behavior , but I have one thing most people don't think I have, and that's respect. First of all, I had no intention of "yelling" so to speak, to anyone. Regardless, old quitters are supposed to be supportive of new quitters. I posted about my raging emotions in another post and you supported without judgement.But when my emotions caused me to "speak up" I should not be told that i need to suppress it. In my opinion, I am glad that I let out my emotion at the board, rather than my family. I would have hoped a community of people who understand would not make me feel as if I owe you all an apology.I am also finished counting my quit. I have found that numbers associated with the quit can make a person crazy. When someone asks when I quit, I'll tell them a couple weeks ago. Finally...There are so many new quitters within the last few days, and coming up soon...and they need to be encouraged, inspired and educated. How can they do that when their posts get lost amongst the nonsense.That's it, I'm done. And I am going to do what I came here to the board in the first place to do. No need to explain what that is.