happy days and sad days

Hi everyone,quit smoking, well after a great time reading this board yesterday and feeling all happy and positive, off I went to work for the evening in a great mood. That's it...it ended suddenly when I got there in an instant!!Have you noticed that when you feel really "up" life has a way of just bringing you right back down to size? When I got there, the lady (lets call her Jane) who works next to me, and who I thought was a good friend, was missing for the second evening running so I asked our team coach "where's Jane?"...the answer was..."she won't be in for a while, don't know how long,stop smoking, she has to look after her daughter"...now this daughter is a married girl who last I heard was coming to visit her parents from interstate for a few days, and when Jane was telling me that last week, all excited, there sure wasn't any sign of trouble.I suddenly felt SO hurt that I hadn't heard from Jane herself, because I could tell that our coach knew the whole story and I wasn't meant to ask any more. Does anyone understand why I felt that way? I think it's silly of myself, but I just feel that I read more into our friendship than was meant, and all evening I was quite emotional when no-one could see me. Even today, I sort of have this big lump of resentment in my chest which I am trying hard to shift because I know it's silly and childish to be like this, but it's hard to think that someone who I really liked and who I have shared my troubles with doesn't feel the same way - may have only shared with me because she was being polite. Does anyone understand what I'm saying?On a brighter note, I have bought a new computer and we are bringing it home tomorrow...I got fed up taking for ever to do things on this old one, and want to upgrade my access for which I needed a more recent version of Windows etc. so splashed out on a new one.While I have been sitting here moaning to you all, I have heard this "beep""beep""beep" going on in the background, over and over again and suddenly I have realised it's my washing machine calling me...I get on here and lose all track of time. My husband says it's a good thing we have machines like the washer and the microwave to get the last word in, because he sure as h*ll can't!!!! See, maybe I am feeling brighter already. I nearly was going to wipe this post in case it was seen as whining, but I will let it stand so that someone can give me some good advice. Please.Maryrose