I don't understand..............

I've got 4+ months behind me and it's been a relatively easy ride. But this last week has been absolutely HORRIBLE! The craves, urges, junkie thinking has been relentless. I've had to put up a good fight to keep from giving in. I don't get it. I'm not saying I expected this to be easy, but I certainly didn't expect to have this much time under my belt and then have it be WORSE than the first week! I've given myself reason after reason to "have one". My brain was even stupid enough to tell me it wasn't that big of a health issue after I saw a very elderly man walking down the street yesterday,quit smoking now, smoking. It said "hmph - he's smoking & old, you can do that too". WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?!?!??!??! Needless to say - I am NOT giving in! CAN'T! WON'T!!! I've got 3 other people that quit with me and I know,smoking cessation, at least one will definitely give up their quit if I do. Plus "my" quitting was my mom's b-day present (I did it for me, but I my quit date was/is her birthday) so I cannot do that to her. I'm not in jeopardy of losing this quit, REALLY! I just felt it necessary to vent to those that I know understand! Congrats to all the newbie quitters, don't let my rough spot scare you, it's still WAY WORTH IT!! And it's not always like this! PROMISE! Sometimes I think just vocalizing (or sharing with others) that we're having a rough time, really helps diminish the severity of that rough spot! Thanks for listening......................TerriFree since Mar. 14, 2007