To Anne

You know, I don't post as much as I once did, and lots of people around here don't even know who I am. But Anne- I know who you are. You were here when I first arrived. You have been in and out the door for as long as I have been around, which is over two years now. You were riding this roller coaster when I first got on the train. Don't mean to offend, but I am wondering something- what payoff are you getting from this trip? Now- those of you who are less than one year old, hear me out. Anne does this on a regular basis- and sometimes she gets a good, running start on a quit- I am talking I have seen this girl throw away a quit after a couple weeks. So Anne- maybe its time for some good old fashioned soul searching. I am not putting you down or attacking you- but for as many times as you have walked this road one thing is clear- if you don't look deeper than the craving or the SOS you are going to continue to do battle. SOMETHING is deeper inside you, SOMETHING is making you continue this journey into pain. WHAT IS IT??? I know I did all the usualy smoker things- just one smoke, I am immune to cancer, it won't kill me- yada yada yada- and until the MOMENT when I KNEW I was an addict, I just kept the cycle going. Look in your heart Anne, look in your soul- something keeps bringing you back in- when you slay that demon you will truly be free- take the time this time Anne- look deeper- what keeps you on this roller coaster- my friend- it is time to get off the coaster and keep your quit this time- it is truly worth it.and for those who don't know me and think I am just spouting- how's this?I have been quit for 2 Years, 1 Month, 6 Days, 2 hours,quit smoking now, 2 minutes and 59 seconds (768 days). I have saved $4,608.50 by not smoking 23,042 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Months,stop smoking, 3 Weeks and 10 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 1/7/2007 7:37 AM