it's been a month, and it's time to come clean

On January 23, I decided, pretty much out of the blue, to quit smoking. I threw my last pack out the window, and was done smoking... that is with cigarettes. You see, I did continue to smoke weed. As much as I smoked it while I was still smoking cigs, I even started smoking more to compensate. But seeing that I could succesfully quit the cigarettes, exactly 2 weeks later, on February 6, I decided, once again out of the blue to quit smoking weed. I began evaluating myself, doing some soul searching, and what I realized, is that for the past 7 years, I have not had a day of being completely sober, I have either smoked this, or that, or drank, or else (and usually) a combination of the three. As I started looking at myself, I realized I was not happy with who I had become: a cigarette smoking - alcoholic - pothead. Not only was I not happy with who I had become, but I realized I was not happy at all. Without the smoke, my head started to clear, and I realized I needed more change. Exactly two weeks after I quit the weed, and exactly 4 weeks after I quit smoking cigarettes, on February 20, I decided,smoking cessation, once again, out of the blue, to stop drinking.I cannot help but think that something big is taking place in me. You see, I am a Catholic, and I find it very unlikely that it be a coincidence that the day after I tossed aside the bottle, happened to be Ash Wednesday, the start of Lent. When I decided to quit smoking cigarettes, in my mind, it was all about the money I would save. I had just bought a new truck, and eliminating the cigs would amount to 4 monthly payments over the course of the year. I had no intentions whatsoever of quitting weed,quit smoking now, and if possible, even less desire of quitting the drink. But here I am, in about 15 minutes, I will have been COMPLETELY sober for 48 hours, about 4 times longer than I have been able to make it in nearly 7 years.I know now that God is intervening in my life. I feel that He has been calling me to do this for quite some time, but for whatever reason I would not listen. The last two days have been incredibly hard. I have gotten very little sleep, my mouth is extremely dry, my hands are shaking. I know that all I need to do is take a drink and all those symptoms will go away. But I don't want to simply quiet them, I want to eliminate them, forever.I am sorry for rambling, I know that this board is all about quitting smoking cigarettes, but I have to give each and every one of you at least some credit in helping me arrive where I am at today. I thank you for that. As this board is about the cigarettes, I am proud to announce that every day that comes and goes, it gets easier to not smoke. I can watch people at break smoking, without even desiring a cigarette anymore. I can smell it, and be disgusted by it. This very well be my last post on this board ever, but as I go, rest assured that I, Geof, am a non-cigarette-smoking, non-weed-smoking-non-drinker.Geof - NOT ONE PUFF for Thirty Days, 3 Hours and 56 Minutes!!!!!!!! I've extended my life 2 Days and 2 Hours, by not smoking 603 death sticks that would have cost me $116.58!!!!