Monday, July 26, 2010

I quit!!!!!!

Hi there,I know I said that I would quit tomorrow but just couldn’t wait another minute. I’m on board!!!! I’m with you guys….After the last exam was over, I went to the bus stop and almost instinctively reached for my cigs to light one. Then I thought,quit smoking, I have no more excuses….exams are over. I really need to quit. At 9 a.m. today I had my last cig. No more!!!! Not another puff!The bad news is that I’m gonna spend my 3rd day traveling. I will have to wait in Amsterdam for almost 10 hours until my plane finally departs. (but I still have time until then) I’m going home…I feel that I need my family with me more than ever. Maybe most of you think that it is completely stupid trying to quit while traveling for so many hours. But believe me,quit smoking now, I really had to….I spend 22 awful days watching me smoking, hating me….I just had to quit…..right here, right now!!!! I had all my clothes washed, got rid of my cigs, ashtrays, and lighters and packed my things. I will leave my windows open…let fresh air in for two weeks. I wrote down on a little piece of paper the reasons of my quitting in case of an emergency. This little piece of paper and this forum will be my lifejackets today.Tomorrow seems to be so far away right now. I make a decision every hour!! For the next hour I won’t smoke…It’s just one hour! Then I will have to choose again!! Oh God what a struggle…..worse than my first quit. Oh please stand by me…..I think I will just get a nap…P.S. Forgive the length of my post…I really need to keep my hands and mind busy!!

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